Naomi Berenson is a 34? year old prosecutor and mother of three.

At some point she tried Visser Ten's host in court and forced her into a plea deal that resulted in infestation.

Naomi is Lorash 639's host.

-------Naomi should almost never get any lines.

Morphs (if it happens)

see Lorash's page

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Pre-Lorash Naomi Berenson: How She Saw Herself

Before the infestation, Naomi viewed herself primarily as a capable but overstretched professional single mother who was doing her best in difficult circumstances. Her self-image was built around competence, responsibility, and a desire to hold her family together after the divorce, even if she sometimes felt she was falling short.

Professional Identity

Naomi saw herself as a successful lawyer — intelligent, pragmatic, and no-nonsense. She took pride in her career and her ability to manage a demanding job while raising three daughters. Her legal mind made her value structure, rules, accountability, and clear consequences. She was someone who believed problems could (and should) be solved through planning, discipline, and follow-through.

As a Mother

Her strongest sense of self revolved around being a mother. She saw herself as: - Protective and invested in her daughters’ well-being. - Someone who tried to set boundaries and enforce them (even if she sometimes felt guilty about not being more present). - A woman who had been carrying the bulk of parenting since the divorce, often feeling the weight of that responsibility alone.

She had a growing awareness that she hadn’t been paying close enough attention to Rachel lately. The fic shows her feeling genuine guilt once Lorash starts pulling at those threads — memories of Rachel sneaking out, vague excuses, dirty sneakers, and behavioral shifts she had rationalized or overlooked. Pre-infestation Naomi likely saw herself as a mother who was “trying,” but who had let work and post-divorce stress blunt her instincts. The moment she pieced together Rachel’s secret nighttime activities (with Lorash’s help) triggered a surge of protective anger mixed with self-reproach.

Personal Life and Self-Perception

Naomi saw herself as a woman navigating a complicated post-divorce life with dignity and practicality. She was dealing with: - Co-parenting tensions with Dan. - The emotional and logistical demands of raising three girls of very different ages and temperaments. - The quiet, constant background stress of single parenthood.

She likely viewed herself as someone who was resilient and competent, but also as someone who sometimes felt stretched thin. She wasn’t delusional about her situation — she knew raising Rachel (strong-willed, increasingly independent, and secretive) alongside younger Jordan and Sara while maintaining a career was hard. However, she still saw herself as fundamentally in control of her life and her household.

Relationship with Rachel Specifically

Pre-Lorash, Naomi saw Rachel as her strong, beautiful, difficult oldest daughter — someone who was growing up too fast and pulling away. She had noticed behavioral changes (moodiness, sneaking out, less openness) but had largely attributed them to normal teenage rebellion, the divorce’s lingering effects, or Rachel testing boundaries. She didn’t suspect anything as extreme as a secret double life fighting aliens.

Naomi saw herself as the responsible adult who needed to step in and reassert control when Rachel’s behavior crossed lines. The grounding scene (and the threat of The Sharing or counseling) reflects how she viewed herself: as a mother who loved her child enough to be strict and impose structure when necessary.

Summary of Pre-Infestation Self-Image

Naomi saw herself as:

• A competent, professional woman doing meaningful work.
• A devoted (if sometimes imperfect) mother who was trying her hardest under difficult circumstances.
• Someone who valued order, accountability, and clear rules.
• A person who had been carrying more than her share since the divorce and was starting to feel the strain, particularly with Rachel.
• Someone with a core of protective fierceness when it came to her children.

She was not especially introspective or self-pitying in her day-to-day life. She was practical, a little blunt, and focused on managing what was in front of her. The infestation shattered that self-image almost immediately — turning her into someone whose mind was no longer entirely her own — but before Lorash, Naomi saw herself as a woman who was holding it together, raising her daughters, and doing what needed to be done, even when it was hard.

In short: She saw herself as Naomi Berenson, lawyer and mother — flawed, tired, but fundamentally capable and in charge of her life and family.

Post-Infestation Naomi Berenson: How She Sees Herself

After being infested by Lorash 639, Naomi’s self-image becomes fractured, conflicted, and deeply defensive. She does not see herself as “Naomi-plus-Lorash” or as a willing partner. Instead, she clings fiercely to her identity as Naomi Berenson, the real mother, while experiencing herself as someone who has been violated, partially colonized, and forced into an impossible situation.

Core Self-Perception

Naomi continues to see herself as Naomi Berenson — a distinct person with her own mind, will, and maternal authority. The mantra she repeats internally makes this clear:

“I am Naomi Berenson, I do not need that thing ‘helping’ me. That thing can play house all it likes, but it will never be their real mother.”

She views Lorash as an intruder and a parasite, not a symbiote. Even when she cooperates with Lorash’s actions (especially regarding the children), she frames it as a grim necessity rather than partnership. She does not accept the “we’re a team” narrative Lorash pushes. In her own mind, she remains the authentic mother, and Lorash is an unwanted, violating presence that has hijacked her body and is trying to hijack her role.

Emotional State and Internal Experience

Post-infestation, Naomi’s self-image is dominated by several overlapping feelings:

• Violation and Revulsion: She experiences deep, ongoing horror at the mental intrusion — the constant reframing of her thoughts, the “mental hugs,” the chemical calming, and the way Lorash articulates and overrides her internal monologue. She finds these acts profoundly violating, even when they reduce her anxiety in the moment.
• Guilt and Self-Doubt: Lorash’s ability to surface memories of Rachel’s sneaking out and behavioral changes forces Naomi to confront how much she had been missing or rationalizing. This amplifies existing guilt about not being a more attentive mother, making her feel like a failure in her own eyes.
• Anger and Helplessness: She is furious at the loss of autonomy but recognizes that outright resistance is currently futile. This creates a simmering rage beneath the surface, mixed with pragmatic resignation.
• Protective Maternal Instinct: Her strongest remaining sense of self is tied to being a mother. She will go along with actions that she believes protect or improve things for Rachel, Jordan, and Sara — even if it means working with Lorash in the short term.

View of Herself as a Mother

Naomi still sees herself as the real mother, but her confidence in that role is damaged. She now views herself as a mother who: - Had been failing to notice serious problems with Rachel. - Is now forced to share (or surrender) control of parenting decisions to an alien entity. - Must sometimes use the “partnership” to achieve outcomes she wants (grounding Rachel, addressing behavioral issues, keeping the children occupied and supervised).

She feels both grateful and disgusted that “working with Lorash” produces clearer results with the kids than she was managing alone. This creates painful cognitive dissonance: the results are better in some ways, but the cost to her autonomy and identity feels unbearable.

Relationship with Lorash and Sense of Agency

Naomi sees Lorash as a controlling, delusional, and dangerous presence that is trying to rewrite her into something compliant. She rejects the idea that Lorash is “helping her be herself more effectively.”

However, she is not purely passive. She strategically cooperates when it aligns with her protective goals (especially anything involving Rachel’s behavior or keeping the children safe). She suppresses spiraling panic at times because she recognizes it won’t help. She is biding her time internally while outwardly going along with Lorash’s immediate plans (the grounding, the Galard class idea).

She fears Lorash will eventually try to infest her daughters and is horrified by the long-term vision Lorash has for “preparing” them. This fear reinforces her determination to remain “Naomi Berenson” and resist full assimilation.

Summary of Post-Infestation Self-Image

Post-infestation, Naomi sees herself as:

• Still fundamentally Naomi Berenson — the real mother, the lawyer, the woman who existed before the violation.
• A mother who is compromised and partially powerless, forced to share her mind and body with something she views as a parasite.
• Someone carrying intense guilt about her previous parenting blind spots, now amplified by Lorash’s constant presence.
• A person who is strategically cooperating with the intruder when it serves her children, while internally rejecting the “symbiosis” narrative and clinging to her own identity.
• A woman in a state of horrified, angry, and pragmatic endurance — not broken, but deeply wounded and fighting to remain herself in the only ways still available to her.

In essence, post-infestation Naomi sees herself as a mother under occupation. She has not surrendered her sense of self, but she is now forced to navigate her life, her children, and her own mind from within a cage she cannot yet escape. The core of who she is — protective, practical, and fiercely maternal — remains intact, but it is now filtered through trauma, violation, and reluctant tactical compromise.